Saturday, April 11, 2009

Do you ever just wonder....

...why you are doing this??

I guess everyone has bad days and this is one of mine. I saw a picture of me from a race and I wanted to cry. I look so horrible I am starting to wonder if someone my size really should be out there doing this....

I try very hard to stay positive but for some reason, right now, I feel like I can't be. With weight coming off this slowly, do I really have a chance at Ironman??

8 comments:

David said...

Melissa,

How hard do you have to fight against people who judge you by what’s on the outside? I can’t imagine what that fight is like .....But you should be a little kinder to yourself....YOU know what is inside you. All throughout nature and society, people and animals have obstacles (fair or unfair) placed before them. You have a choice with the obstacles life sends your way, you can press on no matter the odds or seeming difficulty of life’s challenges.....or you can surrender. Now the question is which will it be? I think WE all know the answer to that one, after following your blog for over a year I do.

So stop feeling sorry for yourself, suck it up and move forward, just like Ironman Day, and you will cross that finish line or you won’t. (But at least you will have given it your best)

Sarah said...

I think about you every day as I think about Ironman. You have the heart to make this happen if it is what YOU want. Stop looking at race pictures, they are always AWFUL! Step away from the computer ;)

Julie said...

I can sympathize with you, I've been there I've felt that, I've seen the pictures. :) But you are such an inspiration to myself and many other and we believe in you. If you are able to do it or if you aren't you are still so much farther ahead of most for even trying! You go girl!

Trigirlorlando said...

Thank you guys so much!! You have no idea how much your comments mean to me.

Irene Odell said...

You know what your odds are....which is what will make 'victory' that much sweeter!! We're all rooting for you!!

RBR said...

A little over 2 months out from my first Ironman I TOTALLY understand. Especially because IF (and that is a big 'if') I tell someone what I am training for they immediately give me the up-and-down-'You don't look like an Ironman' look. Awesome.

I want to get a t-shirt made that says, "Ironman It's not just foe Skinny b*tches anymore!"

Hang in there.

Kathy said...

I judge just about everything I do based on what others "might" think of me.

I want to become a personal trainer... but who has a personal trainer who is overweight??

I wanted to do Ironman.... but I couldn't fit into a tri suit and wore mens training clothes as womens ones wouldn't fit.....

I want to take clients out for training sessions.... but I'm not fast myself, what if I can't keep up with them????

These are all MY issues.... not theirs. It is so hard to see yourself as others see you - an inspiration for "doing it" regardless - so many others just never will.

We are all here for you, and some of us do know exactly what you are going thru - and even though I still have bad days/weeks even, that Ironman day will be with me for the rest of my life - it is the day that I dreamed big, and achieved HUGE.

You CAN do it - it is all in the size of the attitude, not the size of you!

Kate said...

Missy,
I haven't said anything before this because I was following your blog in stealth, but I think you are an amazing woman and you have been a major inspiration for me. I know you can do it. You have inspired me to realize that if my brain believes I can do it, my body can do it. You rock!

And I think everyone looks bad in race pictures because well... we're all nasty from an open water swim, a sweaty bike ride, and then a really sweaty run. So who cares about those pictures?
And besides we all have our doubts from time to time (you can see my blog for mine if you want... http://2gothedistance.blogspot.com/) but the thing that matters most is that we dig it out!