It is not the critic who counts;
Not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles,
or where the doer of deeds could have done better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena,
Whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood,
Who strives valiantly;
Who errs and comes up short again and again;
Because there is not effort without error and shortcomings;
But who does actually strive to do the deed;
Who knows the great enthusiasm,
The great devotion,
Who spends himself in a worthy cause,
Who at the best knows in the end the triumph
And who at the worst, if he fails,
At least he fails while daring greatly.
So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls
Who shall never know neither victory nor defeat.
As we drove home from Panama City, my good friend Rick read me this quote from a Triathlon book he was reading. "Missey-thats YOU" That entire quote is about you. You know what its like to success...and you know what its like to fail. I didn't really want to hear this quote today. I want to stay positive and focused on my goal without the focus being on those letters I hate so much .... DNF.
But I forced myself to look at the results on Ironman.com. I made myself see my name and those letters. I think its important to understand and feel that disappointment. Now its time to fix what's broken.
You should see my email box. I am so very blessed and honored that so many people found my story inspiring. I have two organizations that work with Gastric Bypass patients that want me to come speak to their members. I have several triathletes offering their advice on nutrition. I have had so many people sending "virtual hugs". I am honored beyond words. So many people that don't know me at all that care so much.
So..since my story is now public record (over 4000 people have viewed it on youtube and more on Ironmanlive), I figured Id put out there my plan for the next few months.
I need to drop some more tonnage.
You would think that losing 200lbs would be enough...but Im still 180. I need to drop 60 pounds to be in my goal weight range. In the next six months as I am doing my off season training, my focus will be on getting close to that weight loss goal of 120lbs. Don't you think Mike Reilley would be shocked to see me next year as a size 4 or 6 instead of a size 14/16!!!
Don't worry. I plan to do this the smart way. For now, I am joining Weight Watchers. After the first of the year, I will switch to a sports nutritionist as my training will get more intense.
Consider this my "Biggest Loser to Ironman Challenge".